- The lecturer gives you your assignment. 4 weeks remain. You assume it won’t take longer than a week. 1 week remains. You assume it won’t take longer than a few days. 2 days remain. You assume it’ll only take a few hours. 10 seconds remain.
- You forgot your keys today. And yesterday. And the day before. You start to wonder if your door even has a lock at all and if there really are keys, and if so what are you searching for?
- You hyperfocus. Hours pass, days, months. How long has it been? The calendars and clocks all read differently, time is an illusion, it’s dark outside.
- You bump into a stranger. Your RSD kicks in. You have to apologize to your boss for being late to work. Your RSD kicks in. You refuse to acknowledge the shadow creature in the corner of your room. Your RSD kicks in.
- “Those drugs are just an excuse for drug companies to profit off of people!” posts Sharon, age 42, on a homeopathic “guru” Facebook page. “They just want to medicate childhood! It’s a scam!”. She pays £500 for crystal healing for her child’s measles case.
- You sit across from the doctor. “How were you at school?” they ask you. The gears in your head come to an abrupt halt, you have no memory of anything, was there a school at all?
- You relent to someone about the struggles of your condition. Their face twists and contorts in utter fury, their eyes seem ablaze. “It’s all a conspiracy!” they hiss, “to stop kids from being disciplined!”. You suddenly realize there’s not a child in sight of this person.
- You’re lying in your bed at night, the room pitch black with only the numbers on your alarm clock illuminating a few centimeters of MDF bedside cabinet top. “Sleep” you tell yourself. You hear it, your own voice whisper back “no, now is a time for thinking”. You blink, the clock reads 5:38am.
“I need you to have this ready” they tell you. The grey matter in your skull squeals and giggles with malicious glee. They do not decide what needs done, who is a mortal to challenge what defies nature’s design itself? You nod anyway, only to appease your fellow human. You’ll pay for that.
You sit down to write out your assignment. The blank paper stretches about a third of the desk’s width. You look out the window, deciding that there are more important things for now. The blank paper stretches to the horizon.
“it’s a kid’s disease” they say. You argue otherwise, they tell you to respect your elders. You pull out your ID in protest, waving your date of birth in their face. Their grin extends to their earlobes and their eyes darken. “It’s a kid’s disease” they growl. You were 21 the last time you looked at your license.
“Stop shaking your leg,” someone says. You oblige. Not two seconds later, they glare at you and you realize it has begun again, or maybe it never stopped. did it ever stop? Did you ever have control?
- You decide to do your work after five minutes of relaxing. After a minute, an hour has passed. You get to work. After an hour, a minute has passed. The clocks, you decide, are conspiring
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